Yesterday I tried experimenting with dying more of my cotton tatting threads. I used some different kind of teas, trying to get some mottled pink and ecru colors going on. They really don't sell any good crochet thread in colors here, they sell acrylic crochet thread but you really can't use that stuff for tatting because it won't stand up to the tension and snap. The only colors I can find around here are white, off white, dark red, and that is it. I would like to work with some gray threads but they don't have them here, and it's far too expensive for me to buy specialty made tatting thread on line, or buy a few skeins of dmc pearl embroidery threads which is even more expensive.

I have a weird fixation on tatting with black thread and peacock colored sead beeds, though tbh, even though when I buy them they're always labeled "peacock" or "carnival", but I think they actually remind a lot more of iridescent jewel beetle wings than anything else. But maybe craft suppliers don't call them that because most people thick all bugs= icky and not some bugs= pretty neat. I made a long split ring chain just using these and the same simple 4-4/4-4 pattern, not sure what sort of pendant I'll put on it but I really like making tatted chains, they're lighter than metal chains so it's great if you like layering necklaces buuuut they cost like, three times as much to make. They go through about 6$ worth of thread and 3$ worth of beads, making the cost of producing a tatted necklace chain to 9$+ the, y'know, six hours of tatting it takes to make them lol. As compared to y'know, that I can buy enough chain for 9$ to make four necklaces and it takes me like, 10 minutes tops to make a simple pendant necklace. So it's def. not the method you want to use to keep costs low.

pictured above: in progress of a tatted collar/choker I am working on. Rarely do I ever make shorter necklaces because I like wearing my necklaces nice and long so I can just pull them over my head and layer a few of them together... so this one will be headed to the shop as soon as I can. finish it. woo hoo.

I changed the theme on my storenvy, I really like it. The background and logo used to be very dark, but I think that the lighter background and design are much nicer, plus the new themed has a much more rococo inspired look to it, but with moths. :) I love my nocturnal winged bros.

I swear I have called almost every single doctor in the area, and almost all of them simply will not see new patients at all, I even called doctors who don't take my insurance, and it was a no, because they aren't taking new patients and won't even accept me if I pay upfront in cash. Not even within the scope of my small town, I mean every doctor within a two hour drive of my location. I've even tried contacting an osteopath or naturopath, and nothing. And every endocrinologist in the area outright refuses to see patients without a referral from a GP, because it's "in high demand" and they don't want to "waste their time". (More reasons for me to dislike the idiots of the world who ate their way into type-two diabetes) And no, talking to my current doctors office will not, and has never helped me at all, they are so fucking stupid that I'd probably get better treatment from a fake doctor in a third world country than I would at their office. I don't even get to speak with the actual doctor at my current gp's office, I get to speak with the PA; who may be nice and cute and polite but being nice and cute and polite doesn't mean that she actually knows what the fuck she's talking about because she very clearly, does not.

 I have nothing against PAs. I see the PA at my neurologists office and she is great and helpful. I'm not even against doctors, most doctors I met have been great and thanks to my numerous health problems- I've seen a lot of doctors in my life. It's just that my GP and everyone at their office is horribly incompetent, idiotic, and will not offer me decent healthcare at all despite the fact that I actually really need some goddamn heath care. It's not like I've stubbed my toe and spent almost two years whining about it. I have what is an extremely damaging and harmful endocrine disease that is slowly destroying my body and ruining every aspect of my entire life. This is not something you want your doctors to dick around with. Yet they have: dismissed all of my claims at every possible moment, have blown me off when I have tried to schedule many, many appointments, won't give me a referral to see an endo, take over two months to get the results of my bloodwork then inform me that they've actually lost some of my blood and couldn't even get all the test results back, told me that I am "just depressed" and should consider taking an antidepressant (no I did not get a psych eval before they said this), and the most they've been willing to help me with is send me off to a dermatologist for my hair loss who told me that my scalp is perfectly healthy and it' s probably falling out because of a hormonal imbalance... then I asked them for a referral to an endo and they ignored me time and time again and won't even answer my calls and I've been trying to get a new doctor for months and now I'm taking questionably legal pills because thats literally the only option I am left with.

I'm pretty sure the reason why they are the only doctor in the area is because nobody else in their right mind would want to see them. I certainly don't. The only reason why I'd step foot in their office again is to scream loudly at the patients in the waiting room with, 'stop what you are doing and LEAVE this awful place!'.

I should see if there is a site where you can rate your doctors because I'd love to copy/paste this review about them on there.

It is snowing horribly today and I normally don't complain about the weather ever but all this dark and gloom is *killing* my photography time, and I have a lot of jewelry that I want to show off and thats not going to happen until I can get some decent natural lighting, since I really don't like artificial light for photos.

In the mean time, I have a lot of rhinestone work to do... a have all these pendants and a skulls to bedazzle.